Heavy Heart

by Olivia Norwood

 

This heaviness on my heart.

Feeling like a weighted blanket on top of my soul embedded within my body.

 

Overwhelming feelings of having deep emotions when people don’t understand you.

 

My throat feels tight from crying at night. Rapid heartbeat, going faster each moment. Time feels like it froze itself like ice.

 

But your eyes are moving rapidly, just like your heartbeat.

 

Your eyes start to water,

Tears start falling down your face,

Your throat like it wants to close on itself.

 

Other people think that it’s easy to feel emotions.

 

But your experience feels like emotions are just so heavy.

 

Feels like drowning within yourself internally.

 

Feeling overwhelmed, and yet people still make you feel bad for talking.

 

Is this what a heavy heart is supposed to feel?

Or is this just a concept that my brain made up?

Masking the unknown of unconsciousness or is this just how I am as a person?

 

I want answers.

But it feels like I don’t have any answers.

 

Heaviness of emotions, swimming into the sea.

 

Where treasure has never been found or ever existed.

 

Maybe this is how the story ends…