Ativan

by Alivia Garcia

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My heart is heavy

The boulder sits and waits

      on my chest

Suffocating

I’m sinking

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Do you know how it feels to drown…

      above water.

My palms drip

Losing grip

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Fill your chest with air

Breathe in. Breathe out.

      my therapist tells me

Like a balloon

Inflate. Deflate.

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I watch the flame

of the candle burn

Reaching out to the open blaze

It wavers

teasing me.

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Give me

an Ativan.